When we started our journey to become parents, I always thought of all the wonderful things I would teach a child. How to give hugs, kisses, wave, count, and many other things. I never dreamed of what my children would teach me. I never really thought about it. It was not until each child was brought into my life, that I realized how much you can learn from such a small heart.
Jacob was my first born. From the moment we first saw him on an ultrasound, he was laid back and calm. He was the entire pregnancy. My laid back child. He taught me that sometimes we have to make sacrifices for others. He taught me what it means to fight. He survived 3.5 weeks, when none of our doctors expected him to. Had he passed during those 3.5 weeks, I would have certainly contracted an infection. An infection would have ended the pregnancy before Ethan would have been considered viable.
Ethan was just the opposite. He was moving constantly, even in the NICU. He was dancing on every ultrasound we had. He was tough, and I don't think laid back would have ever described him. As he fought in the NICU, he taught me strength. He taught me that sometimes we have to let go, even when we don't want to. Sometimes life is cruel, and we have to pick ourselves up and continue living even when that seems impossible.
Blake is my take home baby. I think he is a mixture of his two brothers. He has his laid back moments, but when he decides it is time for a dance party... we dance. He has taught me so much in the last year and half. While I was pregnant, he taught me that it is OK to be scared. Just because bad things happened once, does not mean it will happen every time. His birth taught me that sometimes things don't go as planned, but as long as everyone is OK in the end.... it is OK.
Blake has taught me the meaning of happiness, true frustration, pure joy, unconditional love, and how to be a mother. Before I had Blake I never would have thought the words, "We don't stab our friends with a fork" would come out of my mouth. It is always an adventure, although it's usually an entertaining one. Blake has a way of making people smile. He just does. His joy is contagious. He has taught me that life is short, and we should enjoy every second.
Here is some joy.... compliments of Blake.